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*Words of wisdom for inspirational thought are at the end of the story!
I’d heard a lot about Ms. Ellen. She’s one of those people that a lot of folks really want to talk to, but are afraid to actually do so. More specifically, afraid that other people will find out they have been to see her, or afraid of what they may find out about themselves from her. After many months of internal debate, I had finally made an appointment with Ms. Ellen for a psychic reading session.
When I pulled into her driveway for my session with her, I found myself full of nerves. I was never one to be afraid of the judgment of others, but I had no idea what to expect. After ringing the doorbell, I was almost immediately greeted by a stately middle aged lady with salt and pepper hair. I felt myself relax slightly as I took in the kindest countenance on her face. “Hello, Kevin,” she greeted me warmly. “It’s very nice to meet you. Please, come in.”
Smiling as I stepped through the door, I replied in a voice that did not sound like my own, “It’s nice to meet you too.”
“Come this way.” She motioned for me to follow her to her Reading Room. The room was inviting and smelled of lavender. The glow of a salt rock lamp and the low tones of instrumental music gave the room a cozy feel as she led me toward two matching armchairs. Beside one armchair was a small table holding a Tarot deck, an assortment of crystals, and a notepad. After we sat down, she offered me a glass of water, which I declined, and then picked up her notepad and wrote my name at the top
“Tell me,” she inquired with a smile, pen poised at the top of the page, “what brings you today? What are you seeking?”
Having rehearsed the answer to this question all morning, I stated confidently, “I wish to know who I am.”
“Interesting.” Her eyebrows raised in curiosity as she wrote down the focus for my session. “Why do you ask who you are?”
I shrugged sheepishly. “I figure if you can tell me who I am then I can figure out why I am here and what I’m supposed to do with my life.”
Ms. Ellen nodded. “So, you are trying to find your purpose.”
“I think so I.” My brow furrowed. “I just want to make sure I’m heading down the right path, and I’m hoping you can tell me I’m headed in the right direction…or if there are any turns I need to make up ahead.”
“I will tell you what I see, but remember, the future cannot be predicted. The greatest gift given to mankind is the gift of free will or choice. Remember, you create your future moment by moment.”
Ms. Ellen drew three Tarot cards to guide her session, telling me she would explain their significance for my purpose after she received spiritual visions and guidance. She methodically and deliberately placed three different types of crystals around me and my chair meant to facilitate wisdom, truth, and clarity, promising to send one of each home with me after the end of the session. She soon returned to her seat and held out her hands, asking for me to place my hands in hers, which I did, all the while hoping she would not be bothered by their clamminess.
She recited a short prayer for guidance, healing, and light, and then proceeded to stare into my face. Fascinated, I watched her, noticing her eyes seemed to circle my face, round and round and round. I didn’t remember closing my eyes, but I couldn’t have opened them if I’d tried; I had never been so relaxed without falling asleep.
All too soon I felt a gently pat on my hands. From somewhere far away I heard a soft voice. “Kevin, come back to the here and now. Take a deep breath. In…and out. In…and out. When you’re ready, slowly open your eyes.” My eyes fluttered open to take in the sight of the kindest smile. She poured me a glass of water and then jotted down several notes. After a few moments, she turned her attention back to me and asked, “How do you feel?”
“As relaxed as I have ever been,” I chuckled in amazement.
“Good,” she grinned, before leaning back in her chair. “You have been many people during your twenty-three years, Kevin; I saw many faces.”
“What do you mean I have been many people?” I asked in bewilderment.
“When I focused on your face,” she began, “it soon became blurry, and then tiny faces appeared all over your face, kind of like freckles. As I focused on each of these faces independently, I saw different aspects and characteristics of you, and it became apparent that many times your face adopted the mask of what you wanted others to see. Many times, your face was not who you were, but who you wanted to be at that moment. Many times, who you were depended on who you were with or the situation you found yourself faced with. Many times, who you were was totally dependent on your age and understanding.
“The past may be one face, the present another, and the future yet another. We choose daily who we will be. We choose by what we say or do not say. We choose by what we do or do not do. We choose, and those choices are molded by what we fill ourselves with and how we wish to present ourselves to the world and to ourselves. You wish to know who you are and what your purpose is, and I tell you that the answer lies within yourself beneath the many masks in which you have shared with the world. The purpose of life is being who you truly are, but it is you who must choose to be that version of yourself. Being Kevin is the purpose of your life. You are the answer to the question you have asked and now you must dig deeper within yourself to discover what it is that you wish to share with the world through your own passions, dreams, goals, and talents. You are your purpose because...
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LIFE WANTS TO EXPERIENCE YOU:
BE THE CREATOR OF YOUR OWN LIFE
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